Ramadhan this year.

Salam Ramadhan everybody. I might be 4 days late but hopefully everyone doing good and let's hope that this Ramadhan bring good to all of us, Insya'Allah.

I'm trying my very best to atleast go Tarawih prayers. Everytime i go for Tarawih, it reminds me of mak. She's the only person i go Tarawih with all the years so far. Anyways, went to visit mak the other day with my uncle and grandfather and i missed her so much. I really hope Al-fatiha and yassin reaches her. Amin.

Today is all that you have;

"When you wake up the morning, do not expect to see the evening. Live as though today is all that you have. Yesterday has passed with its good and evil, while tomorrow has not yet arrived. Your life's span is but one day, as if you were born in it and will die at the end of it."

Khidhir was my brother, my bestfriend and my lover. We went trough a lot of ups and downs and we planned a lot for the future. We tend to forget that we as human beings planned and that God will decide. I made a lot of mistakes in life and I dont want to live with a lot of sorrow, bother, anger, jealousy and malice and therefore I hold back. 

Everyday i wake up being so scared of death and if he tumbled upon this in any ways, I want him to know that things may not be the same anymore but I forgive him and hopefully he forgives too. I pray that he will be fine, hope for the best for him and that God will bless him. 

Past, present and forever, I love you. 

For abah.

I pray that my dad will forever be a good dad and God will always be there for him.

2009 supposed to be my VS bags.

Was clearing up emails and read up the past emails. I got scammed by Diana Koh aka K. Sayuri. I bought like 2 Victoria Secrets bags for only $80. I felt stupid to believe her but because of greed, I blindly transfered $80. How stupid? Anyway heard news she was jailed for 3months. Thank God the bags didn't arrived!! Too many *cough* minahs *cough* wearing it.

Grad day 2011.

Taken during my cousin, ikhwan's and mingyi's graduation while the boys when out to take a break. We sneaked in and had the time of our lifes!

While watching the whole ceremony, i wonder how it will be like when its our turn. Hmmmm.

Abah, thanks for everything ;)

But of course how can i forget today is father's day. My dad. He is the best dad in the whole entire world. I love him because of so many reasons. He always remind all of us to be a good sister to each other. Always respect the elders. There were this incident when my mum had a small fight with him YEARS BACK THEN when i was only like 6? I thought my mum chased him out the room. So i went out and hugged and cried so hard because i dont want him to leave my mum. But guess what? He was only watching soccer-.-

My family always had this idea that my dad is so strict about everything. But really. He is so not strict. Don't tell me calling his daughter up at 1am asking if i needed anything since im at some friend's house and volunteered to get food or anything for me. Of course at certain days he has his swings and don't even bother to call me up. But when i get to see him the next day he will go "Adiiiiiiik....."

He made the best subway sandwiches! And cook quite a bit too.

We love fireworks and will watch fireworks together at Kallang during National Day Parade and go supper to the best place. All this small little things made me so proud to have the best dad in the world.

Mak, I miss you.

My grandmother passed away 12 days ago. I was affected very much because Ive been staying over hougang, my uncle's place to take care of her 3weeks before she passed out. I love her a lot and miss her so much. For the mean time, i will be staying over at Serangoon to accompany my granddad.

Mak, its weird not to greet you. Its weird to not laugh at our jokes. Its weird to not see you cook at your kitchen. Its weird not to have you around.